As trying as this month was for me in the beginning it’s also been a wake up call , sort of as if Life is giving me a do over . When I’m not pulling for shoots or on set styling or actually shooting , I’m usually at my desk rewriting chapter outlines or behind my macbook contemplating the recommended creative changes sent to me by my editor ( for my upcoming horror novel ) . While I work on both projects simultaneously sometimes (and separately without a problem) , the actual problem in my line(s) of work is my location ,the economy and cost of living here is amazing but the local industry here is not. It’s segregated ,cliquish, and full of a lot of false sense of recognition ( I probably should have moved to Dallas instead ) . There is a lack of consistency and integrity among the talent pool and the majority of people use each other then flake / move on . It may sound harsh but it’s the truth and frankly the stakes aren’t high enough for people to act like this , I’ve always said ( after getting “stabbed” in the back by a friend/ colleague , or screwed over by a client/photographer) ” I could have moved to LA for this type of shit.” ! Well now that I’m a bit older , seasoned , and wiser , I’ve decided to take my talents back to Los Angeles . The passion and ambition is burning in me more than ever and the focus on my career goals are aligned to the symbolic bullseye in my conscience , I simply know what I want . While the similarities in peoples intentions and behavior here and in LA mirror each other , the stakes in LA are high enough to attain actual career goals in both of my industries , and it’s just where I need to be for what I truly want to do.
Despite this purge of revelations and my personal thoughts on the local industry here , that’s not to say all my experiences have been negative or in vain . There have been some great opportunities and I have made some great friendships / work relationships ( that will continue after my move) . Today was a highlight of the positive experiences , I shot and styled a new model , Linda Fuentes and finally got to work with make up artist , Vito Von Black ( our first two attempts were interrupted by the local weathers erratic behavior – another reason to leave lol) . I pulled a Miami-esque leopard piece from nasty gal and some vintage 80s jewelry . Within thirteen frames we had the shot , Linda is one of those models that just has to stand there and you snap away , she has that it factor an authentic working model needs and I’m glad I got to work with her before I head west. Vito was effortless in giving Linda a great nude / glow look and I can’t wait to bring her in on another session before I take my talents to LA.